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2003-01-12 01:16:22 (UTC)

And I Guess That's Why They Call It The Blues

Ok Ok I maybe am not totally innocent with this 'girl
wanting out with me' thing. She wants to go out with me,
but I dont want to go out with her. I would like her,
however, as a friend. But she just wont' stay in that
stationary mode. Why must girls progress continuously? I
put it too you! Readers!
I'm not being shallow here but the girl isn't skinny, which
isn't a bad thing, she's nice enough looking, but she is
kind of masculine. I dont think that we'd make a very good
couple.
But still I want to be friends with her, and we like go
bowling and to the cinema together and such, but she might
take things the wrong way, when I mean them a different
way. I just can't help feeling that I'm leading her on a
bit. That is a terrible thing to do I know, but I'm busy
trying to resolve it. I also can't help feeling that since
she has asked me out over 10 times now and i refuse
[heartlessly], that she is desperate and is only staying
friends with me because there maybe a chance of going out
with me. So that makes me feel used. :( I think i'm turning
into a woman from an American Sitcom. ohmylord!
I need a G/F :( Someone I can hold hands with, someone to
kiss, someone to have huge long conversations with about
nothing in particular and getting nowhere, someone to go on
big long walks around the town with in any weather, all
this i crave, but craving is for the cowardly or the needy.
But of which categorie I fall under, I have yet to decide.
Maybe I should just seize the moment and act on
impulse........ but which moment???? and which impulse do I
follow???? I have many. ohmylord!

And I Guess That's Why They Call It The Blues - Elton John




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