jenybands21

this is it.
2003-01-11 08:21:37 (UTC)

i just dont want to eat anymore

it's 3:14 in the AM, i'm waking up at 9...ick?yes. i'm
gonna go thrift shopping twice in a day! now is that not
heaven or what? mmmmmmhm!

i am pissed off at myself today though, for eating too
much. lets have a run down shall we? okay.

AM-nothing, woke up at 1.

1:15- mom makes BLUEBERRY pancakes. i have 1 3/4 pancakes.
smothered. mmmm good...ehhhh

5:30-spaghetti with sauce and many many veggies....mmmm

10-11(not sure which) a kiwi and lots of candy...

do i even HAVE to go into why i weigh what i do? i mean
honestly? anyway the way i eat now, i'm staying at the same
weight pretty much. my habits are just so sporadic you
know? i'm not consistent with how i eat. i need to throw
away that candy...it was only three bucks for three
pounds...ehhhhhh....i'll give it to my dad.

anyway my absolute dream weight for right now is to be 110.
eventually i want to be at 105. but i'm starting small and
working my way down to smaller. i'm 118 right now i
think...or 117 or whatever either way not much of a
difference. which means i really dont have that far to go.
what is 8 pounds really...?

the way i see it, i can pretty much get away with any poor
eating habits now because of lent, everyone's giving up
things. mine will just be food? YEP.

i just hope i have the will power...is my drug, and so i
need to break the addiction like you would with like, i
dunno ciggarettes or something.

here goes eh!
wooooo!
anyway i'm really tired. it's 3:22 and its my bedtime...

night!
love jeny




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