FreeFalling

I Wish...

I wish I could die right now. On the spot. Shelly and Tim
are going out now..And I never wanted that. But I never
said I didn't. Shelly is my best friend, so I'm not upset
about that. I'm upset that I was the one talking to Tim for
Shelly. See, she was on the phone and Tim was on IM so I
was talking back and forth for them. Now I wish I hadn't. I
want to die. I want to kill myself...Be killed...Anything
to take away the pain. The pain is worse than I imagined.
Crying...And not knowing why. I don't think I love Tim so
why does it hurt so bad?? Why?
-Hope