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Cut me out
2003-01-09 22:20:05 (UTC)

Sunday, January 5th, 2003 4:24 am

:(
I've messed everything up. There are only two things I care
about and I've messed them up.
One is being a vet. I'm too depressed to revise so I've
messed that one up. I know my grades are terrible and I
won't beable to do it now and I've wanted this for such a
long time and it's not fair because I so want to do it but
this stupid thing called depression hastaken it away from
me unfairly, and I want it so so much, but I just can't do
it now. I don't have the strength left in me. There isn't
anything else I want to do. That's why I've tried at school
and things, just for that one thing, and I won't ever get
there, so what is the point?

Second is friends, and I don't know What is happening with
Lu. Everything's changed and I don't see her very much at
all. I don't see Leena very much either, and she's so
depressed, I don't know what to do for her. I'm scared
she'll go too, and I love her so much. :(

Current Mood: depressed




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