Black_lace_hidden_scars

Cut me out
2003-01-09 21:52:53 (UTC)

Saturday, July 13th, 2002 9:10 pm

Can't think of a title. I don't have a mind
I don't have the urge to cut anymore. that is a good thing
I think. the only time I ever want to cut is when someone
angers me because i will take it out on myself for some
twisted reason. Can't think now right now, as I have said,
I have no mind. No, really.

I have eaten so much. I am so gross. Need to go get rid of
it then I can feel a bit happier.... i really hate doing
this. It is such an unpleasant experience. I hate feeling
ill, bending over a sink, it's gross and not at all nice
but it's like some kind of obsession, I have to do it or i
feel so dirty and such a failure. I'll be back soon. Gotta
go do something... I feel so awful right now. I have to do
something about it or I'm going to smash my head through
this window, seriously.

Current Mood: distressed
Current Music: Eye - Smashing Pumpkins




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