Black_lace_hidden_scars
Cut me out
2003-01-09 21:47:24 (UTC)
Thursday, July 4th, 2002 10:12 pm
Wanting a Reason
I really feel that I want a reason to feel depressed and
everything that I do. I feel like what I feel can't be
taken seriously unless I have some specific reason. also, I
hate myself and want to beat my sad pathetic little face to
a pulp. I have started eating less. I don't know why
exactly, I kind of want to be anorexic in a way. I want
people to take more notice of me. I want to punish my body,
I get too much release and enjoyment sort of, out of
cutting. I need to punish myself for being so bad.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Changes (In the house of Flies) - Deftones
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