I'm a girl, not a band!!!
2003-01-09 06:03:12 (UTC)

Sadness Still

I just told one of my best friends that I have to stop
trying to help them. Why you ask? Because that person
doesn't let me into their heart and soul and mind. I try
to find out what I can, but it's never enough. I keep
asking and trying to figure out where they're coming from,
but the doors are locked and the key is out of my reach.

And I hurt so much having told them that. I feel awful. I
love talking to people, and sharing and hoping and feeling
for and with them. But with this person.....well, I am not
welcome. I will never stop loving them. And I know they
love me in their own way. But I have to stop being shot
down when I try to help or understand where they're coming
from. It hurts to watch someone I love so much reject my
help and interest. So I'm not going to try.

And I'm so sad.