RenewedFaith

~Diary of a 17 year old Christian~
2003-01-09 02:32:26 (UTC)

Im sick of the lables and constant judging Will it ever stop?


This diary is for anyone who cares to read something with a
little substance. I need a place to vent frustrations
about my life and this is the place, it seems. Before you
all get started in reading this entry im just going to come
right off the bat and say that yes i am a Christian and
feel very strongly about my beleifs. Im very openminded,
so dont think im one of those Christians you've run into
that are so superficial(sp?) that they talk to Christians
and Christians only...somehow that has become a
stereotypical trait. Im so tired of being judged. Im a 17
year old female, i have a steady boyfriend who is also a
Christian and who i know im going to marry, ive never had
sex nor will i till the day i get married, and im about to
Graduate High School in May and start college. Things are
so crazy right now and dealing with people who dont
understand my faith has completely worn me out. My parents
arent Christians, my father used to be Catholic but hasnt
practiced in over 20 years, my sister and her boyfriend
beleive that i have lost my sense of self that
i "surrenedered to something i know nothing about." A year
ago i was in a place i never want to go back to, i hated
myself, who i was becoming, everything i did was against my
better judgement. I contemplated suicide, and when
everything seemed over i met my boyfriend who instilled in
me a sense of faith. I wont go into this too much more
tonight, i have a half day at school tomorrow so im more
than likely going to come here and add some more. If
anyone on here cares to talk to me about anything or ask me
anything feel free...my email is
[email protected] I'd love to hear from you!




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