kitart

artist's mind
2003-01-08 04:20:32 (UTC)

learning to forgo triggery tv shows

ok a lesson to be learned...no more watching The Shield.
this is an excellent tv show and terribly addictive and one
of the most triggery things i can encounter. ok is this
another form of si? waching things that do that to me, but
no i dont do it that often, just, wanted to watch tv tonite.

I cant watch these things. I mustnt do it anymore. I was
doing really pretty well today. I cut tonite. badly. I
had a vision this afternoon of blood running down my arm
and it came true. not that it takes any kind of forseeing
ability to think that.

what am I doing? I stood over the sink washing up my arm
and thats what I thought. I feel totally empty. I am so
tired of this.




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