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Thoughts and Ramblings and a bit about m
2003-01-07 07:40:07 (UTC)

Random thots on women, emeregency medicine and the club scene

sweetness whispers nothing in my ear
nothing is exactly what i want to hear
with a glaze she gazes into space
is there nothing more?
I cant see that beauty is more than skin
my infatuation leads me to sin
Give me vision to see past the epidermis girl
I know theres soemthing more
there must be soemthing more


Well I guess keepin a dairy..oops soorry..journal..is goin
pretty well..2 consecutive entries..woo hoo! I still havent
figured out how much I want to divulge in this diary, as I
dont know if I want to keep it merely as a cathartic device
for me to spill my innermost thoughts, or want to share it
with friends..ah well.
Today i was back to school for my final semester, and had
an interesting talk to the effects of PTSD on a paramedics
career, interesting, but many things to think abotu as i
dive into this world of emeregency medicine. Then it was
off to the ski hill for a night of ski patrolling, which
was fun as always, riding hard with my buddies, and only
had one accident, a fractured clavicle.... poor kid!
then it was off to the bar to hang with my friends from
school, where things promptly got out of control, as usual,
with several female friends haveing to leave around 1 due
to excessive alcohol consumption..lol. As i was driving, i
only had 1 drink..and it was amusing to watch the
deabauchery occur.
But I really am fed up with the club
scene..trying to pick up..its really sad, the girls that
came up to me tonite and tried to get my attention as me
and a bud played pool...but then i guess i fell victim to
the same disease, as a cute brunette caught my eye, and we
chatted for a bit...but its all so superficial, everyone is
lookin for that true love, that special someone..but they
aint gonan be found in a bar. Its all so shallow really,
Especaily cuz one of my good frends littel sisters was
there..and she was drivign as well, so we were able to
chat bit, which was cool..i'm pretty sure, shes
into me, which is really cool, shes a really quiet
girl...but with a heart of gold, and a great
personality...the kind of girl that is really passionate
about everyhting she does, which is cool...but i got lotsa
things to work out before I think about gettin involved
again.....ah well. but it was a great nite, its a great
feeling to walk into a bar with 20 of your buds there, all
glad to see ya....but one more random thought befoer i
crash...i really feel like i have many aquantances,
but few close friends..i was thinkin abotu that as I showed
up at the bar, and the table or people erupted, everyone
quick to grab me a seat, shake my hand, grab me a
beer...but i wonder, if i was to lose both my legs in a car
crash..how many of those peeps would be there to help
change the dressings on my stumps?? i dunno..and would i be
there for them if the same thing occurred..a few buds i can
count on..but I think i need to start reavaluating the
values in my life. And as for the women in my life..well,
thats another thing entierly....i'll leave that for another
nite...i need a bit o sleep!




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