Dookie

Mind of a Wierdo
2001-09-07 02:38:23 (UTC)

Make it go AWAY!

Here I am ..... full of ......... something.
FRUSTRATION!!!!! Why can't it leave me. It just wont go
away. I feel like breaking everything. I was pondering a
bone or something but maybe it isnt worth it. I dont kno. I
am just so in denial. I am just denying everything. HOW CAN
PEOPLE LIVE WITH ME! HOW CAN PEOPLE LOOK AT ME! Why am I
sitting here in tears? Why do I not want to live in this
world that just seems to put me in the corner? Why do I do
what I do to myself when I kno what I do is not goin to do
anything for me? Wait I kno that answer .... BECAUSE IT IS
THE ONLY THING THAT I FIND HELPS ME!!!! What part of that
is so hard to understand. I am not pissed right now. I am
frustrated, I am scared, I am sad, I can't deal with this.
I cant deal with seeing someone who is goin to waste my
time and tell me that I am stupid for the things that I do.
I can't see a damn shrink (again ... well I shouldn't say
that because I only saw one twice and I HATED her) I feel I
might as well talk to myself because that is how it felt
when I was talkin to that shrink bitch. All she did was
tell me how stupid I was and that the things I was doing
was "Unexceptable". She acted like she knew me .... she
acted like she knew what I was thinking. She acted like the
biggest bitch. I HATE HER! SHE CAN BURN IN HELL. SHE CAN
EAT SHIT AND DIE .... SHE CAN CRAWL BACK INTO THAT SHIT
HOLE IN WHICH SHE WAS CAME FROM. JUST LEAVE ME
ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LET ME BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHE CAN'T MAKE ME SEE THAT FUCKING SHRINK!!!!! SHE CANT DO
SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!