justme

My Life.............
2003-01-06 00:49:51 (UTC)

My Life Back..:)

im happy again, ive decided to eat 3 meals a day,
breakfast-special K, lunch-sandwich, soup, supper, i was
only eating once a day then i went to breakfast and supper
only, i was starving myself, so, i decided id better stop
or i was going to kill myself...
I never really saw the face that looked back at me in the
mirror, until a friend of mine told me how awful i looked,
he said i wasnt the Angie he knew,i used to smile and my
face was round, he told me it looks like someone squished
my face, that got me to thinking, and i went home and
looked at myself and at pictures, and he was right the
person i saw isnt me, im not saying im not happy with
myself, i am, very happy, how many people can say they have
gone from 300 pounds down to 140-143?? i just went about it
the wrong way, and deprived myself of the things i love..
I know because of what i did and what ive change i might
gain some weight back, but thats ok, it scares me to death
and everyday i weigh myself just to make sure im not
gaining any back..
All i heard was "you look so great" and even though there
were people who said i looked awful and to stop and slow
down i just didnt listen, i see myself different as other
people see me, to me, i dont look 'great', im still having
problems with my stomach, i wish it would have gone down
some more, but, eventually ill change my way of thinking, i
hope, anyway...
Ive heard from some people who say im their inspiration,
please dont think that, dont do what i did, its just not
healthy, please eat, you would be surprised at all the fat
free food out there, i found fat free pringles, you get 15
chips for 70 calories and they taste great, i also have
blueberry muffins, fat free, 120 calories for a half a
muffin and they are delicious! i made chocolate pudding
today, 80 calories for a half cup and its fat free sugar
free, and also delicious, I found that you can still enjoy
eating and have your favorite things, my way of thinking
was wrong, and im glad i found that out before it was to
late!
I walk after breakfast, after lunch and after supper and i
wait to workout after supper, i still count calories, i
dont think i cn stop that.LOL but at least im doing this
the right way now, ill do anything not to go back up to 300
pounds but im going to be careful, ill never starve myself
again..........




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