Cath

my so called life
2003-01-05 23:04:02 (UTC)

When I miss you the most

Once in a while something happens that makes me really miss
you. I miss you all the time, but normally it's just a
longing in the back of my head, deep inside my heart. But
once in a while something makes me miss you terribly. It
doesn't have to be a big thing, just a little thing that
reminds me of you and if the time is right, it starts..

At first I feel this itch in my chest.. I won't say in my
heart, it's above my heart somewhere. It itches inside my
chest, and I can't scratch it and make it go away. Then I
feel the tears welling up and I struggle not to lose it. It
itches, it itches so badly.. Then I give in, and the tears
start welling from my eyes. At the same time the itching
stops, but it is replaced by something so much worse. Cause
then I just feel this pain.. This hollow, absorbing pain
that fills me and I don't know how to get rid of. After a
while I calm down and I feel nothing but emptiness. I feel
so empty with out you.
Life is so goddamn unfair
I miss you, love




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