Jay

The Book of Truths
2003-01-04 16:15:55 (UTC)

Snow Snow Snow...

the dates on this table of contents, so the dates on the
entries are the right ones...

saturday, january 4th 2003
10:57 am
music- something corporate-konstantine

so there's enough snow to dround someone outside and i'm
stranded in with a maxima who's windshield wipers dont work,
the locks are fucked, and is just gettin straight up ghetto.
i want to go somewhere but then i remember there isnt
anywhere i could go i guess.

seems like lately the only real friends i have are babbs,
shan, n peen...oddly enough. it's weird how when shit gets
rough for any of my friends, i'm there for every one of my
them regardless of how i'm feeling cuz i know what it's like
to be there. but when the situation is reversed, it's always
about them. i dont even remember when the last time someone
wanted to talk about MY problems. *besides babbs,shan n
peen-thank you* it's a good thing i write because it's the
only way i get to vent besides with babbs.

"love changes and best friends become strangers." and it's
never been so true. i'm starting to realize that some bonds
in life will never be broken, but then there are those that
were meant to be broken. they were created to show you
something, to make you stronger, to prevent you from ever
doing that to someone else in your life. i have some of the
most selfish friends, and when shit gets rough, they give up
on everyone...including their best friends. they can do
what they want, but dont expect me to drop everything and
act like you never left. i'm just glad i have at least one
friend who cares and shows the mutual gladness...i'd be lost
without you caroline. you're serioulsly my best friend
through EVERYTHING...our laughter keeps me going.

no matter where life takes me, everyone i know has had an
influence on my life. you've all showed and taught me
different things, and i'm grateful for every one of you. i
know i'm not ready to leave Kennebunk yet, despite my hate
towards the town. i wouldn't exchange the nights in the
bunk with the boys n babbs for anything...it keeps me sane,
and keeps my mind off the worthless shit i think about way
too often.

i guess today was just a strange realization day for me.
one of the many that is. i've been thinking about this shit
for such a long time, i just never knew how to say it or
when, but i'm learning more and more that i have to put shit
out there or i'll never go anywhere.

i'm growing up.

that's all.

11:13 am
music- 2pac ft. nas- thugz mansion (acoustic)





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