KerouacFemme

Bitch In Seattle
2003-01-04 07:15:37 (UTC)

cook's illustrated

I just wqrote an entire entry that deleted itself for no
reason at all. so heres the short version since Im now
pissed off.

since I have no job and school doesnt re-start until
monday I spent the day fulfilling a vow I made yesterday
of creating an alphabetize4d index of all the recipes in
cook's illustrated, a magazine filled with gourmet
well-tested recipes. it tookm about 4 1/2 hours to do,
and I did it by hand, but it was worth it. we've already
used it. some entries rewquired listing under 2 or 3
catagories... yeah. I need a hobby. what else did I do
rcntly?

oh yeah... in pennsylvania, homebase, over winter
vacation, I started a webpage, and yesterday I found out
that I cant fucking fix or work with it at all from here in
seattle. fucking asshole. that upsets me

umm... I drank a good bit of lovely wine today. and did
not bathe.

I haven't had a cigarette since wedneday morning at 6
am... and its friday night.... I'd like a fucking cigarette
please

tomorrow I should go out to party with a friend of mine,...
ill smoke then

did I mention Ive been drinking?
Im not enarly drunk enough to be happy
quite depressed alll day. then decided to cheer myself
up
that didnt work

I wrote something today.. it was a stream of
consciousness poem

but ended up having a theme
so now it seems like a weirdo short-story

fuck

I only write when Im depressed
but im not depressed
im just pensive.

not that Im deep
just thinking

I have no idea
Im going to watch tv now
to stop the thoughts
they hurt
good day
-KerouacFemme




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