Laura's need to rant and chat
As usual, life sucks
I am going to kill my ex. It seems that he did hang out
with my friend Amy, what a slut. Also, I can't get my new
vcr and dvd player to work togher, so I can't watch one of
my favorite "Buffy" shows and have to scream.
Mom and I fought of course, and I finally told her the
truth about Amy, hell, mom already knew. What is with
Mom's knowing before you tell them. OH well, life sucks,
as usual. I am so mad, I picked up some "adult beverages"
for myself to drink tonight (yes ALL ALONE)
You'd think after being married to a liquior rep, I'd stop
drinking all together, but after today, I am so mad... I'm
going to post part of his email he sent me about my
insurance card (some will be edited for my privacy... :) ha-
from his email:
I have your new card here. It is now in effect! I have a
few things to get to you. Silly me forgot to just give
them to Amy when I saw her before New Years. Just wasn't
thinking. Anyways, I have a ton of CD cases from the
CD's of yours you took with you, a Poppy Z. Brite book,
some lingerie bits I missed when packing up your clothes,
and of course your insurance card.
I'll get them all in a box and send them to you ASAP.
Here's the info off of the insurance card to help you get
the ball rolling on your Doctor appointments. Also note
that adding you to my insurance is costing $58.75
every two weeks, so $117.50 per month. I will just deduct
that amount from what I am sending you for Car Payments.
Seems to just make it all simpler.
EDITED OUT INFO FROM THE CARD, INCLUDING HIS AND MY SOCIAL,
NOW BACK TO EMAIL
Ok, this plan does require precertification on some
things. I know some drugs require it. My suggestion is to
call the 800 number, explain to them the situation and that
your card is being sent to you. You should be able
to get everything taken care of for your pacemaker check-up
with this info, sans card. Again, I'll be mailing your
stuff to you in the next day or so.
Hope you enjoyed your New Years in NOLA. Have a happy and
safe year. I wish you luck in your Graduate studies and
your personal life. I'm sorry that things did not work out
for us, but in the end I guess all that happened was for
the best. I hope you know that while hurt, I bear you no
personal ill will, and hope that we can remain friends
throughout the years.
You know that you will always occupy a special place in my
care, and keep in touch.
END OF HIS EMAIL:
Ok, as you can tell, I am very fucking angry right now, how
dare he try to be nice now and the fact that he is trying
to NOT PAY ME THE FULL AMOUNT ON MY CAR PAYMENT ON THE CAR
HE DRIVES is crazy.
If he thinks I can still be his friend, like his ex,
Natalie, who he almost married, he's FUCKING wrong. I have
never been so fucking mad or hurt or angry or whatever.
What an asshole. Maybe I should tell him that I've gone
lesbian so he doesn't need to worry about my "needs, etc"
I need to scream so loud, it's not even funny. I am going
to scream.... AHHHHHHH-AHHHHHH-AHHHHHH, dam that really
didn't help. I am so angry.
Well, one good thing today, I had Ritchard hang out with me
last night because I was angry at Jim and Amy, however, I
did not let anything happen between us. I'm finally coming
into my own. Hopefully I can figure out things, I've made
a choice, I am getting out of this town if it kills me. I
am going to go to Las Vegas, so I can start my life over,
free and clear of any stress or pain or hell. Maybe I can
finally be happy. Wish me luck.
Happy new year, happy start of something new, happy
anything at this point would help.