Lil Kel

~precious illusions~
2003-01-03 14:47:08 (UTC)

la di da

I'm getting sick of friends...
Let me re-phrase that... I don't know who my real friends are. Therefore I'm getting sick of not knowing.
If that made anymore sense than the first statement.

I count Paul as one of my true friends and definitely Megan as well.
No matter how much everybody bags out Paul, ya have to admit he is the most truest and most loyal friend you can get.
And no matter how much everybody thinks Megan is a bitch, she is the only person who I know admits to being wrong and who is genuinely sorry. She's my bestfriend and has never left my side and she looks out for me.

I'm getting sick of being discarded... I'm getting sick of constantly writing emails and getting no reply.

Krause doesn't even want me as a friend... and neither does John.
To heidi, I only exist when shit happens. For example: Pascal leaving.
Leah... I have no idea. She says a whole heap of stuff and then blames me that I've forgotten her and all this crap... yet it's really the other way around. So I don't know... I don't know what to believe...

Sarah I count as one of my closest friends at the moment... I'm just scared and I wouldn't be surprised that it won't survive the year though...

Friends used to be everything to me and so did family...
But neither seem to have the time... So why bother.
*sigh* Not only that but none of my friends seem to even try to like each other...
Paul, Seth and Krause don't even want to know Sarah. I think that goes the same for Allan too, I guess.
All the guys just think Megan is a bitch and that's it.
*sigh* but then Sarah thinks the guys are boring... and I think so does Megan.
So this makes it extremely annoying because at times I have to choose who to hang out with. I hate that.
I just want to hang out with everyone... is that so bad?

*grr* I don't think it even matters... I don't think the guys would even care if I was there or not, I'm not a big loss.
And I think Sarah and Megan are the only ones who seem to care anyways. Sarah more so than Megan... but that's understandable coz Megan lives in Brisbane.

I hate this so much...
I try and get along with everybody else's friends! so why can't people do the same for me? :(
Bec, Nic and Adam.
Carla, Sheridan, Jason, Jason's buddies, cousins, who ever else she's slept with...
Melati, Carla and Jason.
That Josh dude who is a nephew to a friend of mum's from church... I don't think I've met many of Seths friends...
Jason, Jodie, Beth, Dale, Wendy and so on... and he reckons he has no friends... *pfft*

hmm... I think everyone has more friends than what I do anyways... So it doesn't matter much...

*sigh* I'll get over it.




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