psychomagnet

so i have laryngitis. because..

so i have laryngitis.

because it would be UNREAL for me to just get normal sick
EVER. no i get bronchitis that lasts for 2 months, i get
cramps for 3 weeks at a time, and i get laryngitis when i
was so sure i had made it through the season without
getting sick.

and that fucking asshole doctor gave me a prescription for
THE SAME FUCKING SINUS MEDICINE he always gives me. i
wanted to punch him - I DONT HAVE A SINUS PROBLEM. its
like the only thing he knows. every time i go he writes
the same prescription. i was going to ask him about my
girl stuf while i was there, but i thought, fuck it, he'll
just tell me to TAKE THIS FUCKING SINUS MEDICINE when i
have my period. i hate him.

i cant talk. so i cant work. i dont feel too bad except
its irritating to not be able to talk.

we had this huge fight.

its really getting out of control again. i dont know if
seeing some kind of doctor would help. if theres some kind
of mood stabilizers or something that could just calm me
down. because hes right. i mean how can i expect him to
be happy? EVERY SINGLE DAY, i bitch about everything. my
temper has like no fuse left at all, i cry about traffic
lights and i scream about a long line at walmart. i cry
when we have sex, i cried when the ball dropped -and we
were having sex--- i cry when my phone battery dies, i cry
if i drop something - where are all these tears coming
from!!?? and i mean, i KNOW im ridiculous. i WANT to calm
down but its insane right now, and i just cant. everything
seems so huge and i need to just relax. im driving him
away again. and i cant lose him again - at the point im at
right now, i really couldnt take it.

i dont know what to do but i need to do something. this
cant go on.