Little_Tiger

Little Tiger
2002-12-31 18:12:16 (UTC)

New Year's Eve

I'm talking to his friend online... the guy is so nice! I
think we'll all get together soon, so all of my friends can
meet my boyfriend, and I guess I'll meet his friends.
So... I'm not doing anything for New Year's Eve, just kinda
lazing around the house. It's afternoon and I'm still in
my PJs! And then Chinese food tonight with family, if that
counts for anything. 'B' invited me out with a bunch of
his friends, but he's sorta creeping me out lately so I
told him it was a family night. I think he forgets
sometimes that I've got a boyfriend... either that or he
ignores the fact entirely. I don't mind flirting with
guys, but when they come on as strong as him? No way... as
far away from me as my guy is right now, I'll still take
him over any other. Crazy? Probably...

Actually, it's weird... I really like this guy from *get
this* my church. He was there Christmas Eve, and he alter
serves, so I was kinda looking at him a lot. And I wasn't
sure, but I thought he was looking at me a lot? I get so
confused, I can never tell if someone is looking at me or
not, but later on... well, I know a lot of people in the
choir, so I went up and wished them Merry Christmas, and
then my mom and I headed over to the nativity to take a
look. And then 'D' came out of the door above the stairs
to my right, and I looked up and he looked at me. And I
smiled at him, just a little smile, and he smiled and gave
a little wave and nodded his head. Sounds like I freaked
the alter server out a bit, lol. I know him from my
school, too, we've been in classes together before. I have
no idea why I like him... he's not very good looking and he
doesn't talk to me at all (I think we've had one
conversation about a test mark). Maybe it's just common
interests, cause I know he shares a few of mine. I think
it's ok to think about other guys a bit, right? I mean
he's so far away, I see him so little. I'd never... NEVER
cheat on him. I don't know if it's harmful or not to look
at other guys, especially when I'm supposed to be so
serious with him. Ah well, I'll give it more time.

So I haven't thought of any resolutions yet. I don't think
I'll have any. All that I ever do is just try not to eat
for the next month... that works good! Until I see the
left over chicken balls and sweet and sour chicken in the
fridge... and it's all over... Try and work out more?
Nah, I'm on the net too much, and I'm studying, and doing
all of my activities outside of school. I could try to
feel better about my self... yeah! That's it! lol, oh
God. You know, I actually do like my self most of the
time. I'm a bit of a slob, but that's it. I think what
I'll do is give my room a cleaning. My mom wants to
redecorate it anyway, so why not? It's not like it will
take me more than an hour (just so you know I'm not THAT
much of a slob... I've just got a huge room, a lot of crap,
and no shelves to put all the crap on!). Ah... problem
solved, I'll be less of a slob. Of course, this all starts
tomorrow. Any bets that I'll forget it all by then?
*collects 10 dollars from all of you*. Well, back to my
flute.

~*~Little Tiger~*~




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