super_sharpie

Amber's
2002-12-30 02:27:46 (UTC)

Christmas Break

I truly hate christmas break....not christmas, just the
break in general. well...I dont hate it as much as I hate
Valentines Day. So far, I have been totally utterly bored,
and depressed the entire time. Im bored because I havent
done anything at all, exept for hangin out with my best
friend a little...but other than her no other friends seem
to actually want to hang out with me. (this is sounding
like a pity party soo sorry) its like I only have one
friend. guess so. And as for the whole depressed part. My
mom seems to want to drag me to the cemetery...this in
general is depressing a couple of acres...full of dead
bodies, buried underneath your feet with a couple of things
that hold cremated bodies??..cmon now. Mand with my mom
becoming a total nut case during these times. (due to, I
guess, the fact my grandma died a couple days after
christmas 11 years ago)..so..that and everybodys got to
fight in m yhouse. So what could be the possible awnser for
all of this?? Yes thats right. Lock myself up in my room
and sleep . or read. or doodle and paint. Then my mom
thinks Im going suicidal, because Im in my room, sleeping,
or reading, or painting and doodling. So she comes up with
the plan that she should share a story with me about this
womans son that killed himself and how heartbroken his
family is and all this stuff Then she starts whining that I
never hug her or tell her I love her.Then theres my dad.
well..me and him aren't exactly close. at all. in fact I
think he hates me. well, i have well enough reason to
believe this. JUst a couple of weeks ago he told me he
wanted me out of the house and abou how I am such a
horrible daughter and he does everytrhing for me (yeah
thats funny)...and for some reason I think I should get my
dad commited to an institution because hes acting like he
did when we lived in Oklahoma before he tried to shoot
himself... Then theres the never ending war between my
brother and my sister. both are definelty crazy and enjoy
inflicting pain upon each other and calling each other the
funniest-but obscene-name. Am I the only same one? of
course. but some might say I am the only insane one.
whatever it is I really dont care.Then theres my dad.
well..me and him aren't exactly close. at all. in fact I
think he hates me. well, i have well enough reason to
believe this. JUst a couple of weeks ago he told me he
wanted me out of the house and abou how I am such a
horrible daughter and he does everytrhing for me (yeah
thats funny)...and for some reason I think I should get my
dad commited to an institution because hes acting like he
did when we lived in Oklahoma before he tried to shoot
himself... Then theres the never ending war between my
brother and my sister. both are definelty crazy and enjoy
inflicting pain upon each other and calling each other the
funniest-but obscene-name. Am I the only sane one? of
course. but some might say I am the only insane one.
whatever it is I really dont care.




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