Kandibarre

.label me.
2002-12-28 04:52:03 (UTC)

blau blau blau, sind alle meine kleider

guess what you people. i am going to be happy today whether i
like it or not. stuff is going on and there's a coupla things on my
mind that i realize over and over again, a person i am having
trouble forgiving...but thats ok. I am going to be happy. but if one
more person comes up to me and says ANYTHING that has to do
with me being tal... I SWEAR.

hehehe. just kidding. i think? well i just read on this thing that im in
off all the charts ive looked at for height...for girls my age or older.
in other words they dont usually make people my height. =o) but
im getting over it. ive had sixteen years, you'd think id deal with it
by now, and i have but people have a way of ruining that kind of
thing. remember when sarah banks (shes like 4) asked me if i was
a giant? or in the mall when little kids come up to me and say
things like "WOW yer tall?" or when that little boy in that jeep while
i was walking with a short friend of mine pointed at me and said
"S***, shes tall?" yeah. that doesnt make me very happy, and it
sort of hurts inside, but i know that God made me the way i am for a
purpose. (If you live in MD forgive me for insulting you by saying
that, but i beleive it.)

anyhow. im supposed to be happy. ready? set? GO. guess what? i
drawleded somethin today. it wasnt good, but it wasnt terrible
neither. ill get it back. i will. did you notice how dark they make
these pages? its like they want me to write depresing stuff. i guess
thats why most people come here. iguess thats why i came here
too, but thats different. any way. i need someone to teach me how
to write again! essays have ruint all my creative writing abilty dang
it! i starting writing agn and it takes so much longer now that i
havent done it in a while. if anyone who is reading this has any
help itd be apreciated. i guess i forgot how almost. its too bad i
didnt keep my journal from 9th grade. i dont think you understand
how much i used to love writing! i cant do it any more and that
makes me mad. lol and i cant type either, but thats cuz i practially
refuse to learn =o) i can type fast, just not correctly. i find it easier to
get my thoughts on paper with pencil for straight prose and poetry,
but its so much easier to write stories on the computer cuz u can
move suff around easier. esp. cuz im so indecisive now lol. im
trying out writing a story in a notebook, and its turning out alright,
but now i cant do anything with it. its helpful to read these writing
magazines i got, but now icant change the stuff as easy. the one im
writing now needs to change direction, because its getting to dark
for my tastes. anyways.....

i dont know if anyone else reads this besides me, so if you happen
to read this entry thingy could you drop me a note? i dont care who
you are, or if you just picked it up on the "read what other have
written" page. Its nice to know that anyone is reaig it, but im not
sure that anyone is. =o) if you leave your name or a link ill check
out your diary too. =o) thanks a bunch

kandi




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