nude_Gabriel

The Adventures of Gabriel in Wonkyland
2002-12-27 20:57:19 (UTC)

28th Dec 2002 4.48am

Illumination today. Think something in me is dying.


Sometime ago.

It was a v. gradual process, i didn't realise it. till now.
Bleeding. v. slowly. surely.
the tears that would never come out. i can't pluck this
dying part of me out.
i can't. and i thought i'd survive anything.

but i'm crying. crying
yes. i'm dying. i have no idea what to do, don't try
feeding crap bout religion or humanity, fuck it.

i not so sure if i'll know what being truely happy means.
I'd lost it awhile, i thought it would come back.
I thought the bleeding would stop.

I thought.

Dying. I try not to show it. i hope it doesn't show. cos
it's like a vacuum that takes away happiness from
everything else n doesn't give back.

no. dun't let it out.

will it eventually take me along?

how long can i last?

bleed till all emotions run dry and leave me in the empty
dark?

please. no.




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