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kates journal
2002-12-27 04:32:57 (UTC)

for real

ok now im typing a for real entry. i like this online
diary....its secretive so none of my friends can read
it...lol. unless i give out the url. i dunno what i'll do.
anyway..christmas was ok but i didnt get new shoes or
the sims...i have some sort of an emptiness in my heart
and i dont know why at all. maybe its because my aunt
beddy just died. i mean, i knew her from parties and
stuff and she was always so nice and i dunno. i didnt
know her THAT well but it still kinda hurts. anyway i was
at monica's earliar and we watched "good will hunting".
matt damon is so hot. anyway the vines CD kicks major
ass. some songs are great to listen to. some sound
liek the beatles....like lucy in the sky....drug songs that
just wash away over u.....hard to explain. anyway...im
listening to "automn shade". this hardly compares to
deadjournal...but oh well something to escape to.
anyway........my head hurts and im babbling for no
reason. i am in a drinking mood. if i had the money i'd
be a pothead. but i dont have it. i reallllyyy need a job....
my dad says i can prob. trade in my epiphone les paul
for a fendar strat...if i want to.....but i dunno i have mixed
feelings if i want to or not. "i'm tired of feeling sick and
useless" . i like those lyrics. ever since im done with
mike...i have like nothing to do. i hang out with monica
sometimes but i dont like to hang out with monica and
jayme that much cuz they like to hang out with the
preppy posse who i feel left out with/dont really know.
besides sometimes they leave me out when they are
together. so i wanna be a rock star...or be in a good
band. but our "so-called band" never practices...i try to
pracitce with monica a lot but she never feels like it. and
ray is ALWAYS with liz....so its hard to practice. we dont
even know if mike will sing for us any more....:(....i hate it
when my dad says "hey kate its time to go to bed" but
whatever i gotta go. i think im just grumpy cuz im tired.
so this entry shouldnt be taken seriously. later....

kate




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