Weezaholic Geek

the time of your life
2002-12-27 02:31:27 (UTC)

you've gotta be kidding me

so yeah i'm here. and i'm writing again. i thought i would
never write in online journals again, but it really is
addicting. especially when you have so many feelings locked
up inside of you that you wish you could get out.

i'm really aggravated. i apologized, when i shouldn't have.
all i did in the first place was defend MYSELF. i
apologized because i knew the world would hate me if i
didn't. and i'll admit, i shouldn't have written it on that
journal, and i shouldn't have said it the way i did, but
the gist of it needed to be said. but did i get ONE apology
for how i was treated? no. not a single one. They justified
their actions by laying a guilt trip on me. And it worked.
They twisted stuff around to make me the bad guy. And yes,
it pisses me off. It really pisses me off that *he* had the
nerve to tell me all my faults, when hes done every single
one that he mentioned to me. for some reason he thinks hes
better than me. yeah sure "hes lookin out for me" thats a
bunch of bull. well if thats what he was doing, he did it
the wrong freakin way.

i'm so angry at them. but they will never admit that they
did anything wrong. i know they wont. they wont ever
apologize, and deep down i'll always remember it. i
apologized. they didn't. doesn't seem fair does it?

they made me cry all day Christmas eve. Thats not very fair
either. They didn't say they were sorry for making me cry
either. Feelings much? Yeah, if i hurt your feelings, I am
sorry, but you brought it upon yourself.

At least I know they wont read this. ANd if they do, I'll
be happy. Because at least then they'll know how I really
feel.




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