Sillygurl-amberlina

Hope, Love, Faith
2002-12-26 16:34:57 (UTC)

Christmas Story...not to cheer you up.

Christmas is always sad and lonely for me. Its a hard thing
to go though knowing this might be my last one. No I'm not
an old woman with no family. I am a 10 year old little girl
that doesnt have anyone to be with. I am sick. I have
cancer and it sometimes seems like this breath could be my
last. The nice people at the orphanage give me a gift or
two but it doesnt matter. Its never what I want. You are
probably thinking "But you dont have anything so you should
be happy with whatever you get." And I should be. But I'm
not. Happiness is only a word unless you have a family to
share it with. They could bring me a pony and it wouldnt
matter. I want someone to ride the pony with me. A dad to
teach me how to get on it. A mom that will clean my clothes
when I fall in the mud. And a bother to ride it when I'm
not. And maybe a dog that will chase us.
There is a boy that shares the room with me. He isnt sick
but he doesnt have a family either. We promised each other
that if one of us got offered a family and a home we
wouldnt take it unless the other one could come to. Joey is
my best friend. Only a best friend would tell someone that
they arent going to go live in their mansion because they
wouldnt take his best friend.
We both write letters to Santa. But they end up on the
walls in the hallway, so I know that they dont get to
Santa, thats why we dont get what we ask for. They tell us
that one day they will find a family for both of us, but
how can we believe it when we have been here for 8 years.
Yes, I said 8 years. But I'm 10? I lived on the streets for
2 years with an old man, I dont even know his name. But he
let me stay with him until he got sick and had to bring me
here. I dont remember that...but its what the people here
tell me.
I wish that this Christmas I could have gotten a family. It
would have been wonderful. Think a family for Christmas!
While all of the other kids would be getting bikes and toys
Joey and I could have gotten a family. With a mom, a dad,
and maybe even a dog.
I guess this year will be the same as all of the others,
only dreams.




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