~*Stumbling Through Life*~
The crazy thoughts that you get when you are bored
Good Morning. I worked on the mag this morning, I love my
mag. This is what i want to do with my life. I know now,
thinking back to all of my previous career wishes...that i
cant handle them.
I could never be a teacher. I cant stand little kids for
that long, and I cant stand older kids. And i cant stand
people. not the best job for me.
I could never be a vet. I could never kill animals or give
shots or see sick little kitties.
I could never be a Nurse. I could never be on my feet all
day. I could never remember all those medical terms and
stuff. I could never give shots. I could never be the
doctors assistants, not being in charge.
I could never be a singer. I could never go out in front of
a million people and sing. I cant even sing that well.
But I could run a company, stare at a computer screen all
day, organize, design, and be in control of my own
publication. I could do that. I could live in a big
apartment in NYC and live a glamorous life.
As long as the apartment allowed dogs.
I looked at myself in the mirror last night a lot. Its
homecoming in 2 weeks and I doubt that ill get a date. Ive
never danced with a boy in my life. So what makes this year
any different? yet i look at myself and see something that
i like. I used to hate my big puffy hair, but its straight
and thinner now. I love my hair. I used to hate my tummy,
but its suddenly gone¿?¿ I used to hate my face but I am
pretty, and I know it. But if Im so pretty why dont i have
a boyfriend? i wonder. when i start to see myself as
pretty, I wonder if maybe i need glasses, because no one
else sees it...
Anyhow, that was a totally lame entry and im sorry, but im
talk to you later