~*Monster Kitty*~

~*Stumbling Through Life*~
2001-09-01 19:07:16 (UTC)

Theres something crazy about life. They say that attitude holds the key to happiness or sadness but I think I lent my key to someone.

Well I told Jessica. I gave her a long lecture about if she
tells anyone, Ill kill her. She swar not to tell.
But guess what?
She told emily.
so know you can imagine that everyone knows. Of course-wow,
maybe i am a phsycic.
So far I only know of Emily, Jessica, Sara and Alexia
knowing..I hope they are the only ones.

I am so totally obsessed with Dane, I cant say that I am in
love because I hardly know him, but I really do like him,
hes so hot.
He had a girlfriend. Shes not that pretty, but shes a
sophomore. Ha, if he can get a sophomore than that gives
me...what? ZERO chance. But I think that theres something
there. I dont know, its like a subconcious feeling. Like, I
know that I could never get with Dane, and that he is way
out of my league..but sometimes I think that maybe he is
feeling something for me too...Im not sure why. Life is crazy.

I saw him at the game last night. (we won-46 to 7) He
always has some girl hanging on him. I wish that I was that
girl. :)

Hes so cute. He said hi to me, I was so shocked! My heart
started pounding out of my body. I saw him with his
girlfriend though. her name is rachel and shes a sophomore.
Shes not that pretty.

I am bad at boys. I cant be friends with them, and I am not good at
letting them know/or not know, that i like them. If i like a guy, I
cant even talk to him, and if I dont like the guy that way, they dont
want to talk to me. Either way, they think that Im a loser and i end
up with zero. I want to be cool with guys but i dont think that i can
sometimes. Life is crazy.

Liana moved to another house. This will be good, I think-
having space from her.

I havent had another depressed day since last I wrote. Im
glad-its creepy, like something takes over my body and I
cant help how I feel inside. People dont understand taht.
That I cant just shrug it off and say 'i am gonna make it
through the day.' i dont think that they realize how bad i
get when i am sad/depressed/angry. I wonder if i really do
get bad or if i am just being dramatic.

~*Lily*~




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