Dominick

The Rainy Day
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2001-09-01 00:54:44 (UTC)

Life

WHY DO PEOPLE DO WHAT THEY DO. DO THEY DO STUFF TO BE
HATEFUL, SPITEFUL, BITCHES, WHORES, MEAN, OR ARE THERE SOME
PEOPLE THAT DO THINGS TO HELP OTHERS GROW AND BECOME BETTER
PEOPLE. MOST PEOPLE THAT I HAVE FOUND ARE THE MEAN AND
HATEFUL. WHAT KIND OF PERSON WILL TELL YOU ONE THING AND
THEN SAY SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT, JUST TO SEE WHAT
YOU WILL DO. WHAT WOULD THESE PEOPLE DO IF i BECAME
VIOLENT AND HURT THEM. THEN WHAT. WOULD THEIR GAME BE A
GAME ANYMORE. DO PEOPLE HAVE A CHART OF WHO THEY HAVE
HURT. YA KNOW WHAT, I SOUND REALLY BITTER, ALMOST LIKE I
COULD HURT SOMEONE LIKE THIS. BUT THEN I REALIZE THAT
HURTING NEVER ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING EXCEPT MAKING ME FEEL
BETTER ABOUT MYSELF. DOES THAT FEELING MAKE ME AS BAD AS
THESE OTHER PEOPLE OR AM I WORSE. I THINK THAT I AM WORSE
THAN THESE OTHER PEOPLE, SO WHAT DO I HAVE TO LOOSE. IF
THE PERSON YOU LOVE THE MOST AND HAVE ALMOST CRIED OVER
LOOSING THEM, NO I DID NOT CRY OVER YOU TIFF, AND THEN YOU
MEET SOMEONE THAT YOU THINK IS NICE, BUT THEN LIES AND LIES
AND LIES. YOU FORGIVE THEM HOPING THAT THEY WILL CHANGE,
KNOWING THEY WON'T, BUT STILL HOPING THAT THEY WILL CHANGE
TO BE THE PERSON YOU SEE IN THEM, A BETTER PERSON. MAYBE
IN TIME THESE PEOPLE WILL MATURE AND THINK ABOUT WHAT THEY
DO BEFORE THEY DO IT. WHEN YOUR PARENTS TELL YOU THEY
DON'T WANT YOU TO HAVE A KEY, YOU LOOSE THE PERSON YOU LOVE
THE MOST AND WOULD GIVE YOUR LIFE FOR, YOU LOOSE YOUR
FRIEND THAT SAID SHE LIKED YOU, BUT DOESN'T, LOOSE
EVERY "HOME" THAT YOU HAVE EVER HAD BECAUSE OF ONE PERSON,
WHAT DOES ONE HAVE TO LIVE FOR? CAN ANYONE TELL ME? WHAT
IS THE PURPOSE FOR LIVING? IS IT PAIN. I DON'T KNOW IF I
CAN GO ON IN THIS WORLD OF PAIN AND DECEPTION. (i probably
misspelled that, o well). SOMEONE TELL ME WHY I SHOULD
LIVE. JUST GIVE ME ONE GOOD REASON.

Umm ok today's date is 1/9/02 at like 1:00am umm i have been looking
back at some of my entries. sometimes i really seem like a hatful
person. i have realized that most people are not hate ect.... If
you look for the bad in others you will find it in them and you will
do more. elightenment is a state of self fulfillment well to me
anyway. i think that i have become a maturer person because of the
events that have unfolded in my life and i would like to thank
everyone for what they have done for and to me.

THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH

André


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