tmarie

tmarie
2002-12-18 19:20:56 (UTC)

A good mood day :)

Well what is new I'm not really sure what to say...I guess
these last few days I have been feeling really good! I'm
somewhat better understanding my friends and thats good,
but yesterday at the mall I really had a good time. Yeah
there was drama up until the point of leaving for the mall
but when we got there it was just fine. I had a really
good day yesterday! It was good to do that because lately
I have been really stressed about things. My friends ( I
really want them to be happy no matter what and I will
help them however possible), my surgery ( thats a big
thing I think I will be spending my X-Mas in the hospital
which is ok I guess as long as I get the job done...I'm
not really sure about this cause it's the real thing but
hey if all works i will be healthy again). I think that
things are working out for the best. I just wish
sometimes that I could be more helpful, sometimes I feel
like I'm not being a good friend because I can't give
advice about certain things or help people out, that
bothers me a lot! However I know that I can't always help
people but I try so it's not all a bad thing :)

Lets see today has been fun...I haven't really talked
to "G" that much which is fine, just a few occasional IM's
but thats nothing. I feel a little less stressed when I
don't have to deal with him. However someone new has come
into the picture his nickname is (ice cream or I.C. for
short) he's a really good guy and I think he's a good
decent honest friend which is definatley a change from the
friends I have here. I still only trust one person here
and somehow I dont think thats going to change, but I'm
certain that I.C. is a keeper in the friend circle. He's
a cutie :) but he's a nice guy who has had some really
good conversations with me. I don't feel ashamed to tell
him anything which is odd because there are some things
that I really can't tell anyone but I can tell him or
sometimes he just says the right things to make me feel
better when I haven't even mentioned that anything was
wrong. Thats really good! I do trust him, but trust is
earned and he has earned it now I just hope that he never
changes that because a lot of what we talk about is
something thats very dear and important to me so that
would bother me if the trust issue failed in that
department. I think it will be ok, I have a good feeling
about this guy. NO I DON'T LIKE HIM LIKE THAT EITHER,
he's just a good friend. Not a best one but a good one.
Well I'm out, who knows I may write later :)




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