Ehren

Wish I was here
2002-12-18 03:54:37 (UTC)

FINALLY

OMG...i don't know what to think anymore. I'm seriously
losing my mind. Seth has been acting really lovey towards
me lately and i seriously don't knwo what to do cuz i'm
crazy over both him and wes. At the concert tonight seth
asked me to sing ot him...and i said if he sang to me
first....and he did..i almost cried..he's sooo sweet...and
afterwards he was all good job and putting his arms around
me and stuff...it was just like at aprils funeral, him and
i just cried together....i was sooo crazy about him two
years ago.....and now i'm getting feelings again..I DON'T
WANT THEM..but then again its a dream come true...i love
wes..but i love seth also...and then there's
levi..omg...i'm sooooo out of it...i seriously need to
stop liking boys...they get me into trouble..not saying
that i'm goign to start liking girls....seth is soo
perfect for me....loves music, good christian, sings,
plays drums, plays piano, sweet...shy..cute....very
cute..and my age..then there's wes...loves
music,skateboards, plays guitar, sings,plays french horn,
good christian kid...they're sooo alike i don't know what
to do....and what if seth is just "flirting"...like last
time..i don't know...ggggrrr......Candice has been being
rude to me lately..like she doesn't want to talk to
me...but she always says that seth is making her mad...and
she doesn't mean to do it to me..but she does it all the
time...i'm trying to be strong and be a brick wall for her
to run into...so she doesn't feel bad bout me being
upset...
i don't know...i should just become a total ditz that
doesn't care about anythign..cuz i never know whats going
on in my life...




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