I need the voice of a good friend..
So I'm just exhausted.. i feel lost again.. and stuck in a
routine a boring routine every day.. and I'm trying to
think of a way to make it okay.. i need to not pick fights
with him like i do.. just remember that this is what i
wanted, and remember to be happy about it and not take it
for granted and cause problems.
and remember that calling her is a bad idea, for any
reason. and reading stuf from this time last year is a bad
idea. and anything that comes naturally to me is generally
going to be a bad idea.
she is gone and everyone is gone because he was more
important. i made that decision. and its too late now.
so i need to make the best of it.