Claudia

once again
2001-08-30 06:47:21 (UTC)

killed

you think you know who your friends are until they turn
around and praise the fact that you broke up with your
boyfriend so that even though they are 1100 miles away they
can try to steal him. How could she lie to me. and i knew
it but when i wigged outon her i immidiatly apologized
because i thought i was jumping to the wrong conclusions.
I'm shaking becuase of Amica. She lied to me and how can
i forgive that. I was thinking to myself how much i missed
tony. Not because he took me out or whatever but because
when he was happy things were so well. I know that Shawn
is in the wings but i can't hold my breath. I have to
live. HE wants me to call him back, and I will. What do I
say, I read an email to him and I don't want him to think
I'm nosey but I wanted to know if he got mine and when i
saw hers from today i wanted to see if she said anyhing
about him not being okay. I feel as if my heart was torn
out of my body and thrown against my face. I'm shaking and
i want to die, no I want her to die. She betrayed me and I
thought i finally got a good friend who cared and wouldn't
hurt me and it was all an act. Tony meant so much to me
and to everyones surprise I do love him and I was hurt when
I let him go away but all I wanted was the fighting and
stress to be gone. She, i just don't know but she killed
me.




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