*contrary*

:::loveless sex sucks:::

its still fucking raining. the weather affects my mood so
much. its like, im already kind of depressed, and driving
all around town all day in this dreary weather is no help.
i had school today at ten and i even got there early so i
could buy one of my books that i couldnt get yesterday. ive
been acting pretty responsible lately, and i kind of like
the feeling it gives me. classes were kind of boring, but
not nearly as boring as the classes i took last time, that
i ended up dropping. my classes this semester are all about
things i am somewhat interested in so my attention span is
slightly better. after school i picked up my exboyfriend
(who i am still very close with) from UT. he had ridden his
motorcycle up to school and he didnt want to ride it home
in the rain. i took him to work, which was on my way home.
i never thought id say this but i am no longer craving sex.
the sex ive had since the breakup left me feeling so
hollow. its amazing how much better and awesome sex is when
youre in love with the person you share it with... i really
dont understand what people get out of sleeping around with
people they dont care about. im making a vow to myself that
im not going to have sex again til i am with someone i care
about and possibly love. i hate that hollow feeling more
than anything and i dont want to feel it ever again...
im going to call fratboy and see if he wants to hangout
tomorrow and possibly go in with me on an ounce. it would
be nice to smoke with him, and i havent bought any in a
while because ive been pretty broke.

:::music:::midtown-save the world, lose the girl

:::complaint of the day:::the radio sucks, and im too broke
to buy a cd player, PLUS i spend at leat 3 hours a day
driving...