Laur10355

If I Could Say What I Wanna Say...
2002-12-14 04:05:22 (UTC)

all the lights that lead us there

i never thought that it was more than wanting to save you,
that maybe i needed some saving of my own.

if your whole life, you grew up taking in and accepting and
believing something, you're not likely to look for anything
else. but what if you were all set, had everything you
needed to believe in... but you just couldn't anymore? and
you wanted to, but it was too hard- you couldn't live your
life the way you did and believe what you did, but it
became more than that. i've spent so much time now
searching for something that can give me an answer to why
things are the way they are. and when you hate things the
way they are, it's pretty hard to find something to believe
in.

it's funny the things we cling to when we've lost our grip
on everything else.

i was doing fine, and at some point these past few years,
that vision of where i was going and what was important
started to blur. once it was out of focus, it never quite
came back.

and i want to believe in something again, but i've never
had a reason to.

i know it will always be a leap of faith, but if i had
someone to walk that road with me, i can't help feeling
that the lights along the way would be a little less
blinding.




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