Wildthing1983

Me and More
2002-12-14 01:50:59 (UTC)

*big sigh*

Diary-

God what is wrong with me!? I was in such a good mood
yesterday. Then today comes and wham, I feel really lonely
and I feel like crying and crying. I don't know why. It
just hit me. I swear there is something wrong with me. I
just can't figure out what.

This lonely feeling is getting worse, it's consuming me. I
want to be held so badly. Kissed, loved, the basics. I just
wish for someone to love me. I mean true love. Not "You're
my friend, I love you" Or "You're part of this family, I
love you" I want "I love you and want to spend the rest of
my life with you, I love you" *Sigh*

Maybe I'll find it, maybe I won't. I just can't help stop
dreaming about it. Ya know? And now that Christmas and New
Years are just around the corner, it makes things worse.
I'm so tired of spending them alone. I hate very much
watching others be happy during the holidays, while little
pathetic me sits there all alone. It's like The Faiths are
smiting me. Like they are saying "look at what you'll not
have for along while, you must suffer!" I know it's wrong
of me to feel this way, but I can't help it. Even when I
was with my ex, I was alone. It's just not fair.

Sad, Lonely, and upset-
Heather

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because the lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in may
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

Oh my soul is dying it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart


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