tmarie

tmarie
2002-12-13 19:50:51 (UTC)

Friends

Today so far has been wonderful. I spent time with my
best friend in the whole wide world. It was like nothing
had happened between us and we were so close. I loved it,
I felt like the time we spent together was well needed.
Sometimes I feel like there's space between us which
really boters me because he means the world to me and I
tell him everything. There's usually never any exceptions
because no matter what I usually tell him what's goin on
right away because I can't hide it. I don't know what I
would do with out him. He truly is a blessing to me and
I'm so proud of him.
We faced a lot of things together and I know we will face
many more and I don't think our friendship will ever
change, if anything it might grow stronger. I love it.
Im going to my roommate's house tonight and I'm really
excited about that, her and my friend really miss me and
they want time with just me. They make me feel good like
I'm a good person and sometimes I don't think that I am.
I get pulled with my emotions a lot. I think I try to
help and care so much that I tend to forget about myself
which sometimes causes problems with me. Espeacilly with
my health. I have been letting it go and it's getting
worse and no one knows because I HONESTLY don't even know
how I would start off what all the bad news is. That's
why I'm taking it one day at a time from now on because I
don't want to miss any opportunites anymore, I'm going for
no regrets and I just hope someday when I'm gone people
can look back on me and say that I was a good person and
that I helped them in some way. That's really all that
matters to me in life(just that all my friends are
happy). Espeacilly my best friend who means so much. I
don't think there is one thing that I would change with
him. I have never felt that comfortable with someone like
this is in my whole life. I can tell him anything. He's
definately my angel.

Oh well I'm off to my roomies house, this will be fun
because I have a lot to think about, in fact I didn't
sleep well b/c that's all I was doing was thinking but I
need a break :)




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