Little Bird

Private Babbling
2001-08-29 21:39:30 (UTC)

Bitter Sweet

I don’t understand why everyone around here is so uptight.
Things would go much smoother if they would chill the fuck
out and just get their work done.
I was trying to joke around with one of my co-workers and
she just about bit my head off. She goes ‘Whatever, I’m not
in the mood. Stop yelling at me!’ I wasn’t even yelling at
her! I was trying to find out where the new girl is this
morning and if she had gone to the Madonna concert with our
other co-worker. When the other co-worker got here she ran
over and talked to Ms. Stick Up Her Ass and was all buddied
up with her.

I am frustrated with the people around me. It makes me
wishy-washy and I don’t like that. I like to have allies I
can count on when need be. I don’t like campaigning under
one flag only to find out I am kicked to the curb when
another soldier comes to camp.

The negative energy around here makes it hard to come to
work.

Off of that subject.

Last night my boyfriend came over. Yes, I have one now that
I may keep. I know only a few short days ago I was pining
over the Charlie thing but sometimes God gives you what you
need, not necessarily what you want.
At first I thought my b/f, R, was a straight city kid who
lived with his folks. In fact he does live with them but he
isn’t as innocent as he could be. After a couple weeks of
talking to him he's blossomed. He may even be the right
Handler material.
Last night was amazing. I was trying to keep calm and not
expect too much. I was really nervous. It was the first
time he has been to my house. Of course he got lost so I
had to go find him. lol
We played with my little vibrating egg for a while and then
had relatively intensive sex. We were both still pretty
uptight so there was room for improvement. He stayed the
night and didn’t let me go once. I loved every minute of
it.
His kiss was what sealed the deal the first night we met.
He uses his lips, tenderly, almost gingerly and uses tongue
sparingly. I meet every contact with my own mouth, gently.
Sometimes I show him how hungry I am and I dart my tongue
across his mouth, into his lips.
He takes what he wants and I willingly give it to him. I
know he wants more from me. He wants me to show him how
naughty I can be. I just need to be somewhere where I can
lock the door behind us and work him over. I need to be
completely comfortable with his tender caress and gentle
urgings. I still have a bogeyman in my head from the last
boyfriends. I have to keep reminding myself that I am okay
with this one…or I want to be.

My Boss quit today. He's not just the boss. He's the
University Registrar. He's taking a job with the computer
people that run things around here. I'm gonna miss him,
ALOT.

The other girl with my name didn't show up for work today.
Her b/f decided that he's going back to his native planet
next week. She is very upset. I can't blame her tho. He's
going to a war torn place and they are very close.




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