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Well Oiled Heart but Still a Bit Squeeky
2002-12-13 01:55:52 (UTC)

Thoughts

I hate to keep writing about the same thing over and over
but dammit, its my fuckin diary right? Alright then!
Sarah is something that I never imagined could be. A
person I can't stop thinking about, and as long as she's
not here, I hurt. Not in a heart-felt way, although its
like that too, but in a plain out gut-wrenching way. It
fuckin hurts dammit! Two weeks......two weeks of
separation, two weeks of short, late night visits. Two
weeks of sporatic phone calls, of these constant thoughts.
The things that once were few, are now many. The thoughts
of her. Before they were of Amber, now they are of Sarah
and the once abundant thoughts of Amber are nothing more
than pity and hate. Fast-paced fly-bys. Feels damn good,
let me tell ya. She's shit, she's nothing to me anymore.
Everyone tells me how much better off I am, Mom, Dad, Nick,
Matt, SD, and even her friends. Kinda funny when you think
about it. She put on a front, a fake. And so did her
friends, not wanting to hurt the poor girl. Nothing but
pity. HAHA! I laugh...
This has turned into one of those rants, one of those
entries that i'm scared to post for fear of accusations.
People will think i've lost my mind, just listen to me.
Nuts, is that what I am. Just crazy? Yea, I'm crazy,
crazy for one girl, one woman, one princess, one queen.
She's all of them now, everything I've wanted and when I'm
not with her, this is what my mind is. Read again, you'll
see what I mean.

(don't be scared, don't be worried, just getting out some
frustration)




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