AzureSky143

Kristan's So-Called Life
2002-12-10 23:04:14 (UTC)

Out With the Old?

Ok, I'm confused.

I guess I was just dreaming that I'd see Ty again, cuz it
never happened..... I wish I could have at least talked to
him about it.... but that would kind of been like me
kicking myself when I'm already down, so I might as well
let it go.

There's a new guy that I met.... ANOTHER JOSH. and this one
is the exact opposite of all my problems.

He is the complete wrong person for me. But he really
really really really likes me. he thinks he's in love with
me.... scary.

I love being with him and he makes sure I feel like I'm the
most important person in the room. He knows about my past
and how I won't sleep with him.. and he's cool with it so
far. He's content just holding me and kissing me and just
being around me. He would do anything for me..... Our
birthday is on the same day, one year apart....

sounds pretty perfect, right?

Well, Josh also has issues.... SERIOUS issues... like that
he dropped out of High School and has yet to even get a
GED. He also can't drive cuz he got a DUI a few months
ago. He smokes weed, and drinks too much and basically
doesnt' care about much... but me.

He is so messed up, but when i think about it, so am i.
He's giving me a chance even though i'm not like the girls
he usually dates, and I feel bad for not wanting to give
him a chance because i truly am attracted to him.

It's just that time for me where i'd like to fall for a guy
that i don't have to FIX! i tried that with bryce and i
got hurt. I dont 'know if Josh is gonna change for me, but
I don't want to give up either.....

I'm going to see him tonight..... we'll see.




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