EmbracedCyn

Butterfly's Journal
2002-12-10 02:50:49 (UTC)

Angry and Hurt.. It's just a game

Well..

I will explain to everyone that I am a gamer. I role play
on AOL so anyone who reads this who knows the boat I am in,
more power to ya. People have too many emotions for this
game, and mostly it's because of the interaction of people
within the game and outside of it.

Today, I was all ready to go and have an RP session with a
friend of mine, but unfortunately, he and I were stopped in
our tracks from someone bringing up an issue that was
supposed to be done, over with and forgotten and mvoed on
from. But I guess as long as she has been in the game she
can't let it go.

So not only did it ruin my mood to the point I am just
ready to yell at her for not getting over it, I also feel
really badly that she complains to my friend about me and
cuts him down for making the decisions he did. But she
decided to take her character away from his, and she likes
to think she can blame me.

However, if you don't understand the concept of "You are
responsible for you and your own actions," then I'm sorry
to say that those people haven't grown up to take their own
fall. She decided what she did, and her reason? Because she
believed I was trying to take him away from her. Well, she
didn't even approach me about it, didn't even bother to.

The last time we talked; she and I, she didn't feel a need
to make amends or come to get along or even speak what was
on her mind. However, she can say whatever she wants about
it to my friend and she even said in her letter to him "I
don't mean to beat a dead horse, but you made the right
choice to pick her." Well, I'm sorry to say but move on. It
is a dead horse and everytime you mention it, you bring
guilt to someone who doesn't fucking deserve it.

Though, I am one to partake in the results in all of this..
it takes two sides to tango. He did pick her character over
mine but that was because their storyline started before
his and mine did. The only reaosn I got so upset was
because she had brought my hopes up by telling me that she
was going to step down from the SL with him because "Our
characters just made more sense."

In a swift movement it was taken away. I got so pissed off,
because if someone tells you they are gonna do something
then 5 minutes alter it changes.. you'd expect jsut a
little anger. So I did get angry, for about a day then I
got over it and I apologized for it (still has the e-mail
for it too).

So then the next day on my other character, I needed to get
experience to build her strength up, so my friend, he said
well I'm sparring, so I asked him if our charries could
spar then, and he said fine. (note: SHE was not in the
room). So in character he says "Who's next?" and my charrie
smiled all ready to have her ass beat and said "I am."

We sparred and I have the log for it and then I got back on
my other character to find out that she had ended the
relationship with his character because of a fucking spar.
her reason: She thought I was using my charries to take him
away from her so she thought out of the RP herself instead
of just coming to me and bitching me out, she decided to
punish him for my so called mistake.

Oops! I fucked up! but she tells everyone else except me
she has a problem with me. I approached her saying that I
wouldn't be the scapegoat to her decision. she said she
didnt need one but she continues to blame me for her
decision to end it and pulls my friend into the middle to
vent all her anger AT ME toward him.

Lovely situation hmm? thought so. Well, hopefully it blows
over.




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