i have no name

bittersweet
2002-12-08 07:29:41 (UTC)

CHERISE

Cherise,' i never had the balls to give you this letter.

Hey what's up? Nothing much here just tired and think
about you. These pasted couple days have been very weird
for me. I go up to you and I try to strike up a conversion
but all that happens is me just standing there not saying a
word, and walking away with not even a simple hello I leave
emptier then when I started. Me looking stupid because I
don't have the courage to say anything because I know
something is wrong. Its sucks. I wish I know what the
hell is going on around me. Its like I just noticed that
I'm so fuck clueless. It's like I have been with my eyes
close this whole time. Lauren said, "People are starting
to get smart and they are starting to see the truth," and I
have fucked everyone around. I really don't know what she
means. Since you have been with me. What truth have people
been starting to see how have I been fucking people
around? Have I ever fucked you? I know I'm asking you a
lot of questions but I just no who to turn to. Plus I
trust you and I know you won't say any shit to anyone,
because your not like that. Cherise, I really do like you
and I never want to lose you. Even though we don't talk
much or do anything together I don't know what I would do
without you. You are a reason I don't want to leave to San
Francisco. Damnit I have to ask you something. Do you
even like have me as a friend? And I just realized that
you are acting the same way Lauren acts with me. Maybe I
just being stupid I just don't know.

What are you doing this weekend? I might be
able to go to the mall do you want to come with me. I know
you hate the mall hell I hate it to but there is nothing
else to do and I haven't been to the mall with anyone ever
since the last time we went. And plus it a lot better then
being home or should I say prison. I feel so shity its two
in the morning I want to pick up a knife and cut but
instead I'm writing so I won't do it and keep my hands
busy. So um yeah i swear




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