ashley

TruDreams01
2001-08-26 03:20:02 (UTC)

after thoughts

well theres one thing i don't understand.. i am not the
perfect little girl ok.. so i told you about what i did
right. in my last entry.. well i don't see why people would
be mad at jason and not me.. and if someone were to put
jason down about it then i would think that they are also
putting me down and thats what i need to here.. i need to
hear it was wrong and not ok.. i mean and no one tells me
that.. not one person has told me what i have done is
wrong.. i only tell myself and thats not good enough.. i
realize that now.. but i am not saying my closest friends
are bad and won't tell me that its wrong.. but please
everyone say it to my face.. you are doing bad things and
stop or i don't know what i will do!! god.. its not hard~!!
and have you ever heard the saying.. lifes a bitch then you
die.. well its true.. you know i can't deal with all this
crap.. people my age aren't supposed to go through these
things.. i don't feel bad for myself.. they were my
decisions and i guess i have to live with them now.. but
one thing i don't know it.. if i was put in the situation
would i do it again?

ashley