Timothy

Jack's Twisted Kingdom
2002-12-04 22:52:44 (UTC)

gallant my ass

work, well I guess i made it past the 90 days,
ye-haw.

you can just taste the sarcasm can't you?

John, a friend of many years, one who've
I think not been a very good friend to,
somehow managed to no show up to work
after being promoted, and is now toast
which sux, I think he deserves the job

but we all have problems, sometimes we
simply can't deal with them, and end up
doing fucking crap to ourselves and our
lives...

gods know, I am certainly not immune to
lifes little fuck ups...

my grandpapa, is dying of cancer, he'll
be dead inside of a year, so the doc's
have said... ye-haw

so, I didn't spend much time around him,
actually spent more time around him in the
last two weeks than I have with my mother,,
which still isn't much...

I dunno, maybe I still have this latent anger
towards him, and I definetly have it towards
my mother...

I think when my grandfather dies, I will stop
talking to my mother for a few years again...

like I did when I was 15... who knows...

not I ...

BAH fucking family... dis functional is the
least of which I would call it....

whatever...

Sigh...

but this all does affect me asking this grrl at
work out...

she has a kid, 2 yo, now am I ready to deal
with that? am I going to if it works, do some
sort of lasting damage to this kids psyche?

something to think about, it was so much more
simply before I knew she had a kid... sigh...

well,

off to the races, don't know what to do...

don't know, if i should do anything...

maybe I will ask her out, maybe learn
something from her, about family

does that sound weak or what?

holy shit...

the crap coming out of my mind...

whats going on?


yeesh