Jack and Beans

Plotting Your Demise...
2002-12-04 21:30:37 (UTC)

Random thought that is not so random...

Being with someone is a lifestyle, and that's what makes us feel
different. Being in a relationship doesn't change who you
are (if it is a good one at least). You are still
beautiful, you are still sexy, and smart, and funny. You
dress the same, and act the same way with friends. When
you go out with someone, to make it work you alter
something in your life. Whether it be something big or
small. Eventually, the lifestyle grows on you, and if you
like it you stay. But once someone doesn't like it, they
have to leave. And once this person is gone, they have to
fix those alterations to make it the way it was before,
whether they like it or not.

That's why I got afraid before. Because I was living a
certain way of life with someone I loved. I loved just
about everything, and I couldn't picture my life any other
way (Well.. I could, I just didn't like it..). Now I'm
stronger... it's different... I have the ability to say the
words "Go if you need to go..." without mentally preparing
myself first. I love him so much that I can say these
words, face my fears of losing him. If I love him, I'll
let him go, and I know I've said this before, but this time
it has more meaning behind it (not that I didn't mean it
before...). That's why I've grown a liking to C's famous
(yet, not so famous) quote. How did it go C? I can
be someone without you, it's just not someone I want to
be...




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