Bryce

My Fight: Love, Life, Drugs and Sanity
2002-12-04 04:57:02 (UTC)

I am going crazy 12-03-02

ok i just wrote a whole bunch of shit and deleted the entry
becuase i just talked to my girlfriend who was freaked out
and crying becuase her best friend T was so upset and I
feel so bad that I cant do anything about it. I want her to
be happy, i want to make her happy.

This is the first time I have ever heard her cry. It is
also one of the first times she has turned to me and opened
up and told me how she feels. I hope I made her feel
better, I really had no idea what I should say. I just
tried to comfort her, I dont know if it worked though.

She is so wonderfull, she carries herself in such a way
that you can't help but see her and say "who is that girl?"
She has grace/charm/charisma she lights up the room that
she is in. Everytime I see her I feel like a little boy on
christmas morning. I want to spend my life trying to make
her happy. I have finally found something I am good at, I
am good at being with her. I love it.

I feel like a part of myself is missing when she isnt
around. It is a hunger. I want to scream, I cant stop
thinking about her, I have never felt this way before. I
live to please her. I would take any abuse. I am at her
mercy. Im hers, and want her to be mine.

jeez i hope everything works out ok


peace




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