Jams

Lesbian....Yes!
2002-12-03 07:06:41 (UTC)

And as I see my reflection in the snow covered hills

I love that song "Landslide". I think the verse is right.
I like how the dixie chicks remade it. Beautiful. Today
was very calm. I was so bored I couldn't wait to go pick
up my sister. We did a little shopping today too. I
bought "Dracula" with Winona Ryder and a game. Bought a
new white shirt and my sister a couple of accessories.

Anyways, I saw sherry at toys r us and I was kind of taken
off guard. I felt a little bit like a stranger with her. I
don't know why. I don't get to talk to her much anymore
and I think that is why I felt that way. It's weird now
that I don't live there. I accidently told her I wanted a
PS2 for x-mas. I was trying not to reveal what I wanted.

I just finished chatting with Dana. I find myself feeling
like an idiot trying to make conversation with her. I am
so bad at this whole talking thing. What do I ask to get
to know someone better? I listen to my friends when they
meet people to kind of see what they ask. But how do I
remember where to strike up a good convo?

Arrrggghhh What an ass am I? I think I need something
to happen that will relax me more. Yeah so making out
should have been that something, but it wasn't like that
when we first met. Now I need some sort of opener to
happen. I guess reading her diary would be it. But that
isn't too personal where I feel like I am "trusted" I
guess. Not the word I am looking for, but on the right
track.

I have that "opener" with all my girls. That one thing
that binds us together. You know where I can feel
completely like me without feeling dumb. I hate that
feeling when I get new people in my life. I just like to
feel comfortable. Yes that is the word....Comfortable. I
want to feel more comfortable with Dana.




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