Emily

One More in the World
2002-12-02 02:38:36 (UTC)

Heres To You

So here we are at the end of the ceremony,
no congratulations, no holy matrimony.
Just humiliation...
Just recreation...
Just determination.
I feel so empty, and you don't even notice
instead you just clear your throat to say the toast.
After all, no party is complete without one,
well, because of you, my life also has none.
Hey? What if I say it for once, after all,
this party is for my failures, and noone can make me fall..
make me fall better than I.
So just for once, let me speak...let me openly cry.
So here's to you, even if this is the party for me,
here's to what I am, and what I'll never be.
Here's to the way I act, and the thoughts that I think,
here's to the way I talk, and what you want me to believe.
Here's to the people that love me, and those that don't,
here's to the people that accept me, better yet those that
wont.
Here's to happiness, thats drowned in depression,
here's to my life, that is covered in recession.
Here's to my family, and even more to my friends,
here's to the people that I'll never see again.
Here's to the people that have helped me through all.
Here's to the people who have helped me stand up,
and even more to the people who have made me fall.
Here's to the person that I will become,
hoping until that point, that it will be someone.
And here's to the things running through my mind,
those damn retorical questions, no answers to find.
But even so, I want you to know,
that no matter what, I know they're all from you.
Even if it makes me feel pathetic, and trust me I do.
I know that I have no one else to blame, and so I blame you,
I know that it's SO wrong, I'd never mean to be so untrue.
But here's to the person that has made me feel this way,
the person who's perfectly content inside,
not even knowing I'm this way.
Here's to you Mom, the person I have failed the most,
this is to you Mom, my goodbye toast.


..theres one example for those of you who were wondering about the
situation between my mom and i...i wrote that the other day..im
debating whether or not to leave it out for her to read.




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