angryanymore

angryanymore
2002-12-01 08:24:22 (UTC)

between your yellowed fingers.

god. i can't sleep.

my legs hurt.
my feet hurt.

and i didn't eat anything but six cheese-its today....

no appetite.

wtf is wrong with me?

oh well.


ok... ................ i think it's time to admit i have a
fucking eating disorder. here's the system.. either i don't
eat at all for like a day or a two... with metabolife.. but
not too many... like ... no more than 3 a day... then i'll
wake up starving... then i'll gorge myself... then i'll go
on horrible exercise sprees... then... etc. ... i'm not
bullimic, though... and i don't know how to classify what
this thing is... but it's lasted a while... ......... so
there's my fucking admission.


i need... some self control.. but it feels like it started
off being about self control... ..... being able to control
myself... by dieting and exercise.. and then it just went
to fucking extremes and here i am.

with no one to fucking talk to about it.

fuck it.

i'm tired.

-neeley