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LIKE A ROLLERCOASTER

OKAY TODAY I'VE NOTICED MY LIFE WITH MYHUSBAND IS LIKE A
ROLLERCOASTER ONE DAY I ASSUME WE ARE FINE BUT THE NEXT DAY
I FIND MYSELF WONDERING IS IT ALL TRUE BUT IT ISNT.I'VE
BEEN TOLD THAT HE KNOWS THE WAY TO MANIPULATE ME AND HE
SURE AS HELL KNOWS WHERE TO HIT THE SPOT BUT YOU KNOW WHAT
I THINK I AM OVERCOMING THIS HE TOLD ME TODAY IN SMALL
WORDS WHAT I HAD PLANNEDTHAT THERE IS NO WAY HE IS GETTING
BACK WITH ME HE AHS BEEN FUCKING AGOOD FRIEND WELL IF
THAT'S WHAT HE THINKS HE IS SO FUCKED UP CAUSE HE REALLY
SHOWS ME HE DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHAT HE WANTS I CANT DO
ANYTHING JUST WAIT UNTIL HE LEAVES WITH THAT BITCH SO JUST
LET TIME GO BY AND KEEP ON TRYING TO GET BETTER FOR MY
KIDS.I REALLY FEEL LIKE SLICING MY WRISTS OPEN BUT HE IS
NOT WORTH ALL THAT SHIT HE SWARES HE IS GODS GIFT TO WOMEN
BUT SHISH HE IS SOOOOOOOOOOO FUUUUCKKKKKEDD IF HE THINKS
THATI HAVE FUCKED UP MYSELF BUT YOU KNOW I CAN THINK OF
WHAT I DID WRONG WHY I DID WHAT I DID AND WHAT THE
CONSEQUENSES ARE AND I KNEW ALL THAT WAS TO HAPPEN .ANYWAY
I'M STILL PLANNING TO DO WHAT I HAD SETUP ITS JUST
SOMETHING THAT I NEED TO PROOF TO EVERYONE AND MYSELF AND
ESPECIALLY MY KIDS.I WANT TO SHOW THEM THAT EVEN THOUGH
THINGS GET TOUGH YOU CAN GET RIGHT BACK UP AND FIGHT EVEN
IF IT IS KILLING YOU INSIDE,EVERYDAY I TELL MYSELF YOU ARE
GOING TO GET THRU THIS BUT SOMETIMES YOUR FEELINGS CATCH UP
WITH YOU AND THAT'S WHEN EVERYTHING GOES DOWN,YOU START
REMEMBERING AND HURTING ALL OVER HOW CAN A PERSON ATTACH
ONE THING FROM THE OTHER ITS REALLY HARD.I FEEL ANGRY SAD
HEARTBROKEN SO MUCH ANGUISH IN MY HEART BECAUSE I LOVE MY
HUSBAND SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH BUT I LOST THAT WELL I'M
PROBABLY LOOSING SOMETHING I NEVER HAD HE REALLY NEVER
LOVED ME IF HE FOUND THE LOVE ??????OF HIS LIFE WELL LET
THE SHOW GO ON I THINK THE ONLY TIME WE WERE HAPPY WERE
THOSE TWO WEEKS AND I WILL NEVER THRU OUT MY WHOLE LIFE
FORGET THEM.IT WILL ALWAYS BE IN THE DEEPEST PART OF MY
HEART.AND NOONE CAN TAKE THAT NOT HIS FAMILY HIS WOMAN
(KATIA)OR WHOEVER BITCH COMES ALONG WELL I'VE LET OUT
ENOUGH STEAM FOR TONIGHT THATS ALL FOR NOW TILL NEXT TIME.