beautiful_mistake

Dead Wings
2002-11-28 18:25:39 (UTC)

SeeF @ 27-11-02

Well...this is it.
My first diary on here.
I've had a couple off somewhere else, but my accounts
frozen, havent logged in 4 ages...ah well.
Whatcha gonna do, eh? (absolutely honky dory no'in)
Well...i'll explain about myself later, my 'rents'll be
home soon, not supposed 2 be on...
So i'll just ramble on about last night's deeds...

Went to Seef last night with Aal and Nader.
We first went to Banderais 2 do Sheesha.
I got kicked out of there a couple of months ago. Lol.
I wasn't old enough to do sheesha and my X made a scene
before.
But Aal's 18, so he could order Sheesha.
Anyhoo...I fancy Nader...a LOT...since a year now...
Everyone knows how much I love Nader, they think it's crazy
coz they know it's true, and not just some dumb love, ya
know? *sigh*
Anyway...we were just hanging out, all sitting together on
one long couch, smoking Sheesha and stuff.
Nader keeps putting his arms around me and hugging me,
while I lay my head on his shoulder, and I'm thinking
HEAVEN
Lol.
I'm in the middle of Aal And Nader, so they keep putting
their arms around me and shit.
But I had a generally good time.
Nader was wearing the necklace that his X gave him, and
kept kissing it and stuff, coz even though they broke up,
they still ove each other (they're in different countries).
So I was just like, getting kinda sadish and stuff, ya know?
Dunno...
And then we were walking around Seef and then they bump
into an old friend, where they all just chatter on, and I'm
like; Uhhhh.
Aal knew I was getting bored, so he kept trying to hint to
Nader and stuff, but ya know Nader...
He's always so hyper and stuff.
So Aal was like, talking to him in Joradanese
((Lol...Jordan language)) about something, I was getting
bored or seomthing, I don't understand the language.
So we were all walking around Seef instead.
Lol...i was like, THANK YOU, AAL
He was being really, really sweet with me @ Seef, I luv
him, such a good friend. xxx
I feel like telling Aal about my feelings for Nader...
(Aal and Nader are best friends)
But I dunno...
Oof...
Guys...
Damn them...
Peter is still waiting for my anser to say YES or NO to
him...
I used to fancy him before, but I was already going out
with other people when he asked me out couple of times
before.
And now that I'm single...
Damn...
I like 2 guys...
But I love Nader, and I only fancy Peter...
And Peter is 19...(just turned)
And Nader is 16...(will be 17 in December)
And me? I'm 16...(just turned in October)
What ta do, what ta do...?
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